The demons ....

Why does this happen? No really why??
When I pulled out of my second race this spring with not agonizing but painful to be of concern tendon ankle pain . I was angry frustrated sad almost to the point of tears. But I was able to say ,Hey you're a 38 year old Ironworker who needs to be concerned about his ability to perform a very physical job that at times walking on steel beams at respectable heights . And messing up a tendon in my ankle was not going to help anything especially when the only thing on the line is a respectable middle of the pack placing in a mountain bike race. Yeah I did a lot of mind fucking on myself to deal with it. And so all summer long I thought about the racing and tendon and all that stuff and earlier i hit the bike and although it seemed fine while riding the ankle was in a 7-8 in pain which told me to let it be and heal.
Add to that very slow work i probably worked as mus as I was laid off this year but I did better then some. I got some good Triumph rides in and the year was not a total loss. I am working now maybe for another couple weeks. I had a real close call at work which could have left me dead,disfigured, mentally incapacitated(keep the joke to a minimum),but for what ever reason was able to grab the beam and hold on and thankfully I did not pass out and Thad and BVG were near by to get me backup on the Iron. If any one thing from the tie off to the bundle of decking was off 1/4 or maybe less it would've been different.

Sooo last week I found myself cruising the Siren Bike website which I really like the style of bike and would love to steb up my bike quality but if I am not racing a full season I cannot justify the new bike but i still like to look. Then I started looking at the the sites of the riders I admire riders who have jobs and are able to ride at the the highest level in the endurance races, Mr .Strout,Mr.Unwin,Mr.Marenchin,as well as others like Justin Lund, also hitting the WEMSsite and realized how much I missed the racing

Now I sit here debating,deciding,plotting,configuring?,where do I want to be On October 30th,2010? Well I'll tell you , as it stands right now I want to be out of debt,working steady , in a new home, in a stable relationship,and will have been able to Triumph trip to Texas in the spring for 1-2 week trip,with meetin L.A. and ride back , and to have raced through the season maybe not evry race or even with series points in mind but enough that I kept at it and enjoyed it and maybe if Granny Gear get's their Sht together I'll compete in the 24 nine. But the way that went down last year was a shame. If they think they lost $ last year what about the continued loss of the years to come. Maybe the Good folks involved with WEMS could create a 24/9 alternative???? I know there is a lot too it. and people not as worried about money would help too. OK OK OK .back to me again. In addition to learning that Damned guitar to the point of having 10 song's Iknow as well as a comprehension to facilitate a little improv on it. If not I'll sell that and the 8500 trek for a new pc and play video games 'til I retire at 75.

So thanks for allowing me to vent. As I sit right now I will plan a coordinated,hopefully well executed plan in which in addition to a new strength and conditioning program in which i can include a program of base building ,which the lack there of I believe was the culprit of my ankle situation. Hopefully things will get clearer as time goes.

Have a Great Halloween.

Be Well.


and Oh yeah,
did you see this?

Let's do this

Why is it whenever work slows down I spend more money???? Boy if I could sue for ADD effects.
Got a spam forward today from friend bitchin' about Obama and the Liberals , I'm not gonna loop off into right or left here . But all of us need to do the right things. You know what they are. it is cause and effect. Stop the handouts, hire everyone on a performance based pay,. Tax breaks to have your company fully in USA and all parts made in USA. You like wal mart , I like lead paint for kids toys so we agree. I figure less regulation more fatalities less burden on the taxpayer . .That whole stimulus pisses me off. If I find out about any of my Officials begged for anything that will not directly create living wage jobs I will campaign against them . There is no excuse for the state we are in. I vote on both sides of the fence maybe not the best for those in my life but there are issues that are Simply PROPER and Good for AMERICA on both sides of the house and if we as a country can't see that then I hope we see the Apocalypse in my life time just to let me be at rest knowing it can all start anew. I hope the salamanders can live off their own shit so they never need to live off the efforts of others or vise versa. USE LESS ,SPEND LESS, Earn your own way or get the F out. I'm all for the Heritage flights, ,Give up your citizenship and free flight to your Father land. Then you can go to your leader and bitch to him about the job he's doing,stand back and watch out for the machete.

Ordered Training Peaks today for 12 hour personal best, why? well because I work very hard and have overcome the odds in my life to be able to do the things which push me to be better than what I was yesterday.If you don't like it find a purpose in your own Life. HA.
OK OK OK . Pretty cool set up although better serving some one who really likes to enter every little thing. I will not be logging in every double 1/4 pounderbigtastylarge fry after work snack. I have to fuel me for the training. Who knows maybe in a week I'll be all sucked into it. OH yeah i guess I am sort of officially joining a Mountain bike team TEAM CYCLOPATH which in an odd way is the name of a team I should be associated with. I will order my Jerseys this week. I hope this will help me to be more dedicated to the sport and my goals . The one fellow told me it's more of a Mountain bike race club but I still feel obligated to put out my best as a representative. Been talking to Guy from John Tomac Bikes http://www.tomac.com/ about getting frame from them they look sharp and I have a fan loyalty type faith in their product, any input will be appreciated. Their website is to be updated soon . In my searches , there are a lot of mountain bike makers in Germany and Europe that look really cool and really High end, Rotwild,Ghost and Canyon. Get me one of those things.
Well I'm gonna crash out now.
Be Well...
And another thing , bring the windmill manufacturers here and build the parts here.
Be Well...